two years later

After having my soul physically sucked out of my body due to exams and other general life problemos the whole 'fashion blogging' thing didn't seem so appealing. I've spent a strong two years wearing baggy polo necks, stan smiths and mom jeans complaining about the effort to enter the fashion world, ignorantly reading vogue hoping that the 'editor in chief' title will just be given to me at some point.
This said ignorance seems slightly ironic however, as I've lost a lot of confidence and don't seem to have the ballsy 'I don't give a fuck' attitude I held age 15. Reading the posts you see before you - as old and embarrassing as they are - did hold a certain aire of presence which I am proud of. I want to revert back to that with nobs on, trying new things, not caring what others think. Opinions are so important - the most attractive thing a human can have - and the internet is such a valuable platform to showcase them. I don't particularly care if no one wants to listen to what I have to say but at least this blog gives people the opportunity to hear.

So: quick update.
Am currently studying a-levels (english literature, maths, politics and philosophy) dreaming of a life where I'm not studying a-levels. By studying I mean failing, mostly because I spend too much time thinking about working rather than actually doing it, lusting over gorgeous girls on insta and painting my nails. In that sense not much has changed, although every Friday I tell myself I'm going to sort my life out and lose at least 10 pounds to suddenly convert into an academically successful beautiful god-like being with realistic set aspirations who is loved by all. Of course this starts off by me attempting to do just so. I shave my legs, block all the boys I've decided aren't worth my time and eat some angel cake, telling myself I'm on the right path. Yet by Sunday I'm crying in a sweatshirt with prickly legs wondering where it all went wrong. Enough is enough.

I will start writing and if you would like to read on of course please do. I can't promise it'll be overwhelmingly insightful but I dropped art and don't have a creative 'release' as such so maybe this will become a hobby. We can hope. I'm pretty sure there won't be another two year break though.